Oh Crap

I've been here before, a "life flashing before my eyes" moment.
Quite a while though, last time was maybe half a decade ago.
One of my clandestine college runs almost busted by a tyre gone bust.
See..., told you I've been here before. That's my "was here" signature just flown past.
I remember when "was here" used to be all the rage in Naija.
Awww, my back, it hurts. My tail bone, its on fire.
I'm rambling, what's with the rambli....


"Ewoo, wetin dey do you sef, you don killi us today"


My toes, I can't feel my toes. Can't move my legs, I'm paralyzed.
Oh crap, this is how it feels to be a cripple.
Rehab maybe, I heard it works.
How long? Weeks, months, forever.
What will I do without my soccer and running?
No, no, no. I won't go, go, go.
Why am I miming Winehouse?


"mocha, is this better"


Who is that? can you hear me, let me out. An image of my co-worker holding a Rolling Stone cover flashes by. Amy Winehouse's made-up face stares back. Yes its better, anything is better than Keith Richards on the last cover I saw.


"Kai, willlie willie the 2nd"


Behind the make-up Amy's got some pipes on her, that wail reminds me of Lauryn Hill. The "rehab" remix with Jay-Z and Pharoahe Monch is something. From the rebellious "rehab" to the dark title song its obvious she wrote the album during a period of personal heartbreak, when she and her then boyfriend, now husband broke up. I'm definitely on the lookout for her first album in the hope that its almost as good as the second. It does give me pause though that she sometimes looks like a poster child for crack's wackness and her addictions run as a subplot through the article and album. Her man, alcohol, weed and more all have a potentially destructive hold on her soul. Here's hoping she keeps a leash on her issues and channels it to more music.


Who are all these people?


"This world is not my own, I'm just passi ...."


"Are you alright? What happened? Can you continue?"


Me's already attending my funeral while the questions come thick and fast. Ask away like you didn't see your little teammate get underneath me when I went up for a header, I landed on my freaking tail bone. Yeah I'm continuing, its personal now. Lying on my back catching my breath I wonder what addictions everyone around me is dealing with and oh yeah, we won and I can feel my toes now.